I can't really explain why it happens. I feel compelled to act on my instincts and in doing so, I
cause myself more problems and controversy than inherently necessary. There is a sense of
idealism that I can't seem to shake. I find myself inconsistently evolving and devolving into some
sort of transposed state of adolescence. I laugh louder and cry harder at times when I would rather feel nothing at all. I am forever seeking ghosts and living beyond my means and my heart. If I feel fenced in, I break the wooden planks into splinters. I want freedom and I equally want to belong and those are both detrimental states that exist at cross purposes.